Friday, February 29, 2008
7:37 PM
This few day I went to meet up with Gui shan,boris,lim xuan,Wei Chao,Ah yong,Amelia,Bao Zhen,Mable,Xiao Ivan,Ah Ben,Gary and More..Then get to saw heng..Yesterday is KAM birthday..For weeks i hardly smile till yesterday i saw them..I feel happy but i know there is still things going on..I myself dont know what happened to me..I learned my lesson that i must listen clearly what others said next time and now i tried to talk less..But it seems that things are playing game with me..No matter what i do to try save this friendship,there is always things to spoil it..Things are like i said very early before..1 by 1 they will take them away from me..Why it is so unfair..I am trying to do my best but end up like that..They are my close bro and i never think of losing them till today i worried..It make me think..Is there other way out to solve everything..I am trying my best to explain to them..1 of my best bro have left me..Till today i still cant forgive myself..The feeling is bad and more things are coming to make me mad..Knowing things are great..Explore new things are even greater..But losing years of friendship is the most painful things in my life..Everything have their rule..What goes around comes around..I never know what they are doing now..Even if i ask chao wont tell me..Last time i am full of curious and keep asking for help and protection..Now things are different..When things related to my close bro i stress out..I only can blame myself..The time i never meet up with them i think a lot..The past i cant blame them of things..For now i just hope one day they can understand me..Hope that everyone can trust me and come back to me..Those thing want me lose things but i am not giving up..All i can said is that if there is anything i will update to everyone this time..I am sorry..Things might happened but maybe it isnt me or maybe there is someone much powerful behind this..Haix..
I know You are out there..The distant is very far but yet you are in my mind..I wish that u are mine and protect u but i know we cant be together..There is no hope for me..I close my eyes and dream of you..Even if it is only 1 day of memories is enough..I remember your smile..When i get to know that u are sad and moody,my heart is hurt too..How much i wish to see you everyday..It is really heart broken to be in this state..I dont know what to do next..:(
=Meep0k= (Hell)
